Today's a day for me to sleep in, but I woke up at 5:45 AM and can't sleep. I'm thinking about my babies and being a dad. My Avery isn't with, she died and I miss her desperately. This is my third Father's Day without her and it still hurts. I don't ever expect the hurt to go away. I don't want it to. She only lived inside mommy for 28 weeks. I never felt her move or heard her cry but I got to see her face. I got to hold her fragile little hands. I had the privilege of kissing her head. I was only with her for 6 hours but I was transformed from that day on. She changed me forever. She taught me that I am stronger than I know and even the worst days will pass; and if i'm open to it, even the most horrific times in my life can have positive outcomes.... Eventually.
My little boy is waking up now!! I get to see him and feed him! I'll write again soon.
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